Let's start with my freshman year of high school. I was so nervous to start high school! I mean weren't/aren't we all?! It's a scary time. You're starting a new chapter in your life and you want to make sure it goes smoothly and turns out great. Let me just tell you, high school is NOT going to turn out that way. There is no "perfect" in high school. You do meet a lot of really cool people right away though. I knew a LOT of people. Almost everybody in all seven of my classes. Just a few weeks into school I had a bunch of friends. I wasn't popular or anything(I don't even think there was a "popular" squad at my school). I just knew a lot of people.
High school was easy at first... Until you get caught up in that girl drama, and boys... Or that ONE boy. You and that one boy are best friends. Then it turns into something more than that before you even realize it. But wait... You're not allowed to date. Now what? I'll tell you what NOT to do. Date and not tell your parents. Yeah that's what I did. If I can just give you girls some advice. Your mom is your mom for a reason. You can't keep anything from her. She'll find out one way or another. Learn from my mistakes if you will.
He was the first guy I was ever interested in(now that I think about it I just want to gag). So I wanted to give him all of my attention, and when I say "all." I really do mean ALL. I lost two of my best friends that way. I ignored them at break and lunch to spend time with him. I just figured since I couldn't tell my parents about him, I obviously couldn't ask them if I could hang out with him. I could always hang out with my friends after school or over the weekends though. But I only had the time we were at school to see that boy. So ignore my friends and hang out with him was my logic. I guess I had never heard the phrase "girls before bros."
I was so caught up with him that I never even realized how fast I was losing my friends. Or that I was too busy texting him all day after school and on the weekends that I didn't even concentrate on my homework anymore. I didn't want to spend quality time with my family. I couldn't concentrate on my classes. I failed my tests... That's what a boy can do to you(when you find the wrong one). My Mom could tell I was changing, and not for the good. Not sure how she found out about him, but she did. At the time I was mad about it. But now, I thank her for it. He was never good to or for me.
By the time she had found out about it, I had already been ready to break up with him. He got together with another girl and told her that he broke up with me, and I found out about it. I finally broke up with him. Not for my Mom. Not to get my friends back(which I really did want back). But for ME. I broke up with him and kicked him out of my life for good. For me. Although it was hard. It was the right thing to do. I went through sort of a depression stage for a little. I was so upset with the bad decisions I had made from him being around me that I wanted to start fresh. Obviously things wouldn't go back to normal. But I wanted to try and forget about everything that was involved with him and me. I asked my sister to bleach my hair and put purple/blue streaks in it. I asked every single one of my teachers for all of the assignments I still had to do and if there were any extra credit assignments they could give me to catch up so that I didn't fail all of my classes. I got off of social media. Wasn't on my phone much. I had headphones in my ears and was listening to music a LOT. Just to kind of focus on myself. Try and go back to how things used to be. To how I wanted things to be.
Something that really helped me move on from the whole thing was hearing about a fashion college. In my photography class, there was a lady who came in and spoke about FIDM. It was SO interesting to me! I knew that I wanted to go there! It made me research about it. It took my mind off of other things, and made me focus on what I really wanted to. Which was college and fashion design.
I finished my freshman year of high school by almost not even moving on to the next grade. I had almost failed every single one of my seven classes. I had Ds(which is considered barely passing in high school) in all of my classes other than math. I failed math. I was never really good at it anyways so that was kind of something I had already figured would happen. My Mom didn't want me to go back to that school the next year. So she transferred me to a charter school.
Next page of my crazy high school chapter. First day at my new school here I go! My younger brother was starting high school that year and my Mom wanted us to go to the same school for his first year. We knew one person. My friend that had been going there since freshman year. My brother, my friend, and I start walking into the classroom. I see this really cute guy... But no. I'm at this school for a reason. Because of a stupid guy. Theeeeen... My friend goes to the table that he's sitting at... Just my luck right? There were only four seats to a table so it wasn't like I could just ignore his beautiful face you know? I tried really hard for a few minutes though. I started a conversation(don't know what about) but my friend, brother, and I were just talking and laughing. Then I notice that the cute guy across from me wasn't saying anything. I look over at him, get his attention, and ask "do you not talk?" *talking to myself* "Kenna, why would you say that? Let's not scare him off now, be nice." so I laugh after I asked, to try and hide my rudeness. He laughed and said "not really." At that moment I really wasn't sure what to think. Is he weird or is it cute that he's a little shy? I asked what his name was and what grade he was in. He told me that his name is Dominick and that he's a senior. I couldn't talk to him anymore because class was starting now.
The teachers were really nice. The students were really sweet. The school work wasn't bad(but then again I do love school). Maybe this wouldn't be such a bad place after all. You were treated like family the minute you walked through those doors. It was such a great environment for me to be in. I loved it. Since I wanted a little break from trying to grow up too fast, I relaxed and took my sophomore year pretty easy.
There's not very many students at that school. It's a small charter school. So it really did feel like family there. Everybody were friends with each other. We were all pretty close. Remember that cute guy though? Him and I got pretty close too. We started talking in between classes pretty much every day. Then it turned into us sitting next to each other in class. Then I put my number in his phone. We text non stop(but not to the point where he was distracting me from school, friends, family, or my own personal life). We became best friends. Whenever there was a school project, we were partners. When we needed help on our school work we would ask each other. He's a good guy. He didn't distract me from what was important to me. I didn't distract him from his school work either.
About the middle of the school year I had an idea. I loved this school but I was excited to get a move on with my life. I didn't want to wait anymore. After looking up and learning more about FIDM over summer after my freshman year of high school, I knew I just wanted to get out of high school and go follow my dreams of becoming a fashion designer. FIDM could help me with that. So here was my idea. Why not take a few extra classes, maybe even over summer, and graduate high school a year early? So guess what? That's what I did! I didn't take any extra classes throughout the school year my sophomore year, but I did take a class or two over summer just to get a little head start before my junior year. Then my junior year I could take the rest of the classes that I needed in order to graduate a year early.
After I talked to my teacher about taking extra classes, she was all for it! All of the teachers at school encouraged me to graduate a year early. They were all proud of me for wanting to work so hard for this. I really did work hard. Even though I wasn't taking extra classes during the school year my sophomore year I was still really proud of myself. I moved onto the next grade with all As and a 4.0! Such a big difference from freshman year wouldn't you say?
You know who also left with all As and a 4.0? That cute guy. I found out that he had not so high grades when I met him. But by the time he graduated high school he had perfect grades! All of the teachers said that I was meant to come into his life and that they're happy that I could encourage and help him. Him and I have now been together for a year and a half strong!
On to my junior year of high school! I was ready to be surrounded by a bunch of school work! I love school so that's honestly really what I was thinking. I ended up moving over summer. About 45 minutes away from the charter school. So I had to be home schooled through the program. Now I wasn't so excited to be surrounded by so much school work. It was pretty boring. Being home... No friends to talk to because they're all in school... It was the most boring time of my life. But I knew what I had to do. I knew that if I wanted to graduate a year early, I had to somehow find motivation to do my school work from home.
About halfway through the school year I applied for The Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising. Guess what?! I got accepted! Thank God too because it was the only college I had applied for. I honestly wasn't even interested in any other colleges. I'm so very thankful I got accepted!
So I finished all of that work! I am now graduated a year early from high school! I have one class to do over summer before my diploma gets signed and sent to me, but other than that I am completely done with high school! What a journey. I am now looking forward to starting college this October!
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